Everything in me.

Everything in me wants to fight and win her back, to tell her we can make this work, to promise change.

Everything in me wants to respect her decision.

Everything in me wants to scream at the top of my lungs and say I want you, and that I don’t care how long it takes or how slow it needs to be, that all I want is her.

Everything in me wants to respect her decision.

Everything in me didn’t want to leave last night. I wanted to hold her more, hug her more, smell her more, memorize more details of her face.

But everything in me wanted to respect her decision.

Everything in me wanted to change, to adapt, to keep apologizing, to keep searching and figuring out a way to make it work.

But everything in me wanted to respect her decision.

Everything in me wanted to drop to my knees and beg, to refuse her no, to keep our relationship, to make her change her mind, to tell her that I would stop pulling her into a space she isn’t ready for.

… But everything in me loved her.

Everything in me respected her.

Everything in me wished her the best.

It’s not about me.

I’m sorry I pulled you into a space you were not ready for. I’m sorry I was so blind. I’m sorry for not respecting you then.

Everything in me will respect you and your  decision now.

Forgive me.

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