… so much.
You have given. You have… taken.
It’s all part of your plan, yes?
I am so very afraid. Your future, it scares me.
You know my thoughts, you see my imagination.
And you see the paths it takes me to.
Paths that, a lot of the time, don’t lead to you.
My desire is to please you, my Lord.
And I cry, uncontrollably, when you take things away.
When you take.. people.. away.
But……… you are.
You are my lesson.
You are my future.
You are my daddy.
You are… in control……
I will obey. I will be okay.
I am… glad, that you know how it feels.
I… love, how you know my struggle.
It’s… amazing, that I can turn to you.
Proof that you are real.
That your reality.. can be mine.
I did not expect this change. Yet, through its mouth came the wisdom that has prepared me such.
I’ll keep holding on. Through tears. And joy.
May what I feel be allowed by you.
Shape me. Tolerate my pain and my whining.
And… most importantly… just… stay with me.