The seventh entry in my journey towards a deeper relationship with God.
It makes absolutely no sense that we can still somehow go about our day, as we have planned, when we ask God to guide us with His will.
Yet, that’s always what we do.
There have been so many occasions where I have prayed, God, guide me today. Let it be known clearly the things you wish me to do in mine and other’s lives. Amen. And I go about my day. I get a call from a friend, asking me out to dinner. I get a prompting to say yes. But God, there’s a party at the beach house tonight, and I want to go to that instead! The response to that is silence. God has already spoken, and it is up to me whether or not I do my will… or His.
Unfortunately, I did mine. I went to that party. There were dozens of people I didn’t know. And I had a terrible time and left early. And I wished I had gone to dinner with that friend instead.
It also dawned on me that earlier in the week I prayed for God to be with me and deal with my feelings of loneliness. I sought friendship, and I asked God for that. My answer was that party. But God’s answer was in that invitation to dinner. I chose my answer and I ended up feeling even worse. If only I had obeyed that prompting.
It’s crazy how often we fail to realize that God answers our prayers all the time, and we fail to see them because they require more than just us praying – we also must submit our own will and desires so that God’s will can break through to us and bless us. We can’t just ask God for His will and proceed about our day committing our own agenda. Where is God in that? We have to BE in his will to experience his blessings, his answers to our prayers. We have to allow God to disrupt our schedule.
My success rate with doing things God’s way is… hmm, 0.001%, if that. God is always speaking to us, and has so many great and little things he wants us to do.
So God, help me. Please. Help me to realize and obey your promptings whenever I hear your voice. I know you have much better things in store for me today than what I have planned. Help me be sensitive to that. I renounce the work of the enemy and forbid it to steal the words of life you give me. You are my bread and my portion, and I submit my will to allow yours to break forth. Thank you for answering my prayers, and help me see your hand at work in my life. Forgive me for disobeying you, forgive me for not listening. Renew my mind and author my steps, Lord. I love you. Amen.